Sunday, February 28, 2016

All the feels

All. The. Feels. 

I have never in my ENTIRE life been as emotional as I have been the last three days. I cannot stop counting my blessings. Over and over. I am in awe. I look at Mollie and I swear I fight back the tears. Why? Because she is so freakin awesome that my heart literally cannot stand it. I think she's awesome when she's awake. I think she's awesome when she whines. I think she's freakin awesome when she calls me "MiMi" instead of "mama" and I think she's awesome when she lets me rock her for a quick minute before she goes to bed for 12 hours. 

Side note- I am not saying that motherhood is not hard. I would be LYING if I said that being a mother/wife/teacher/combo is easy. It's not. It's the hardest thing I've ever done. I fail daily. I fail at being a mom and I fail at being a wife. I have found many faults in myself over the past 14 months. But every single smile makes all the work so worth it. 

My heart aches hoping she feels as much love FROM me as I feel FOR her. She is my light in this crazy world. She makes me so proud and makes me look forward to the future.

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.  Ephesians 4:2