Tuesday, March 15, 2016

When simple tasks aren't so simple anymore.

Today has been a trying day for mama. 

I am not sure why Mollie Kate is grumpy about life today, but she totally is. (It's possible that she's tired of going to Hobby Lobby ever day after school.) 

Don't worry girl, you'll love it one day, it's in your genes.

Anywho, I needed to run in and grab 2 things and I knew exactly where they were. After that, I needed to go into Kroger and buy some flowers. What could have been a 5 minute trip into each store turned into an hour and a half. My patience was running thin and my bottle of wine was calling my name. 

While rocking her to bed, I prayed for patience. Again. As I always have to do.

I know it's unrealistic, but I don't want her to see me undone and bothered by the small things. At the same time, I want her to see me fall to my knees, begging for the patience that life and love demand.  I know she was feeding off of my mood. I know I should have dropped everything else and gone outside to play or gone for ice cream together. The other things can wait. She will only be a toddler for a moment. She will only beg me to hold her for a few more months... If that long. I get angry with myself when I don't recognize these things in the moment. But, now I know for next time. I'm human, and a first time mom... I'm bound to let things get the best of me, right?

She's sleeping now. It's 7:11 and still daylight. The house needs to be cleaned again from the tornado that is named, Mollie Kate. But instead, I think I'll sit here and watch HGTV. Because if I don't, then I'm letting another moment pass me by. A moment of "me" time. 

"Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:6-7